dinsdag 15 maart 2011

Back to basics

Wow there sure is a lot of stuff in my room to keep me occupied. First of all I have my keyboard and PS3 to spend countless hours on. Then, if I'm in the mood for reading, I can always find a book or two scattered around. And if I don't feel like doing any of those I can always hop behind my PC which gives me an unlimited amount of things to do. It's no surprise that everyone spends so much time behind a computer nowadays. I can listen to music with Windows Media Player, or write a nice article in a text-editor and, if all else fails, there is always the magnificent thing known as the internet, through which you are reading this very article now. What on Earth would I do if all of those possibilities were taken away from me? Boredom is the first thing that comes to mind but that is actualy not what happens.

About three weeks ago I went on vacation with the rest of the family. One weekend to spend together on a bungalowpark on the island of Texel, which is the largest island in The Netherlands (I'll post a map in a later article for those interested). When going on vacation, no matter for how long, I always conciously decide to leave any technology behind. I wouldn't think about taking my laptop for example as that destroys the idea of vacation for me. When packing I decided to take something else with me, namely a notebook and a pen. Contrary to what you might think this was not for writing. Instead I planned on picking up a hobby from way back in my youth. A hobby I was keen to get back into. Drawing.

I used to draw all kinds of things when I was little. Pokemon, Thunderbirds or even basic things such as numbers. Because I didn't have any technology at my disposal I spent my time drawing my very own stories for Digimon or Pokemon, alone or with friends. Unfortunatley I never got far with any of my stories. When I got older I started drawing less and less until finally I was only drawing on very rare occasions. It was the fear of not being able to draw anymore that stopped my from going back to it. If I were to draw again it would surely end in disaster.

A year ago I finally made a drawing again, now in a completely different style than I was used to, and it turned out great. Even though I was very excited to continue drawing I didn't do so eventually. Can't really tell why either. On Texel, where I had no technology around to distract me, I picked up drawing again. I started drawing a chocobo from the FFX strategy guide which I had also brought with me. The results can be seen below. I think it turned out brilliantly and am really pleased with it. Proud of it even. Not only did I draw something really cool myself I also got the other kids into drawing. Sometimes we would sit at the table, 4 of us drawing for hours. It was great fun and I hope they enjoyed it was much as I did.

All in all I hope I'll continue drawing this time around. A drawing such as this one takes me about 6 hours to complete, however. And it's not always tempting to start drawing when the chances of failure are rather big. Given the things I've learned over the last years though, this shouldn't stop me. After all, if I have to go through 20 wasted drawings to get one that looks as good as my chocobo I would be happy to. I hope the other kids feel the same way.

vrijdag 11 maart 2011

Talent

There have been numerous talks about Charlie Sheen and his recent behaviour. I had one such talk with my parents yesterday. They said something along the lines of him wasting his talent because of his reckless behaviour. Which got me thinking about exactly that. Talent?

Because what exactly is talent? I guess the most common answer you'll find is that it's a natural ability to do something quite well. Let's take playing the keyboard as an example. Someone with talent would no doubt be good without much practice, while someone with no talent would take an extremely long time to learn even the simplest songs. Sounds logical so far, right?

The problem I have with this prinicipal is that talent is often attributed to people who are good at something. I don't agree with it. Sure there may be some people who are indeed talented at something and became famous with them, but if everyone who is famous was talented in their specific area where does that leave the average Joe? Is it not possible that someone became very good in a certain field because of hard work? Attributing it all to talent is not giving the artist enough credit.

Most people who become famous in a field, and I'll use the music industry as an example, have only gotten that far because they worked really hard to get there. If you want to become a really good keyboard player, talent alone is not going to cut it. You need dedication and hard work, and lots  of it. Do you think that the great keyboardists(is that a word?) out there have gotten to where they are only because of their talent. I highly doubt it.

Attributing everything to talent also creates a vacuum between the people we see on tv and the people we are. Think about it. If I have to answer whether I think I'm talented at something I would have to answer  negative. I don't excel in any area so I don't have a talent for something, or at least have yet to discover it. The same goes for nearly all of my friends. There are only 1 or 2 who I would call talented in a certain field. The rest is not. Does that mean we can't become good at something? Hopefully not. If that would be the case I might as well give up my dreams now. How could I compete against the talented people with my limited skillset.

I'm not trying to say that talent doesn't exist, actually I'm pretty sure it does. I believe that talent provides us with a considerable advantage and disadvantage. Let's look at the advantage first. There is no doubt that having talent gives you a considerable advantage over people with no talent. If someone with no talent were to start playing guitar for example, he would find it extremely difficult. It would take him a long time before he would finally be able to play his first chord or song. On the other hand if someone with talent would start playing guitar I imagine he would pick up the first chords rather quickly. It wouldn't be all to long before he would be able to play his first song.

The advantage given to people with talent is bigger than it may seem. When trying to learn something, the most important feedback we get are the results from what we play. If I were to pick up a guitar now and play something it would no doubt sound like crap. This informs me that I am not very good at playing the guitar. A talented person would get much better feedback. He could play a chord which will sound nice. He gets feedback which informs him he is doing good. This will make it much easier for him to continue playing as he already has a sense of satisfaction while I have to make do with my negative feedback. It will take me some time to get the chord right, all the while getting bad feedback for every misstrum I make. The only thing that will keep me going on is dedication. I'm much more likely to quit playing guitar than the talented person is. This is exactly what happens in real life. Untalented people become discouraged by the negative feedback they recieve and they simply stop playing alltogether. They need way more dedication than the talented player to keep going.

The disadvantage is that because someone is talented in something they may not find it challenging enough and stop playing, arguably wasting their talent.

In the end talent is nice to have but it only affects your starting position. Sure a talented person would have it easier in the beginning but he would need dedication to keep going as well. Because that´s all there is to it. If you want to become good at something your most important tool will be dedication. The dedication to keep going even when things aren´t looking up, and believe me these times will come. And those people on tv. Well they´re probably where they are right now because of that exact same thing, dedication to become good at what they like. So next time you look at someone and think: Wow that guy sure is talented; try to look a bit further. You have every chance to become as good as they are. And don't be discouraged if, like 99% of the population, you haven't got a talent. Because in the end talent is only a bonus. It's not necessary to get far. That would be dedication. And we can all get that.

vrijdag 4 maart 2011

Songwriter Special pt. 2

Sometimes when you listen to music you can't help but listen to the text and think to yourself "this is awesome". There are some brilliant songtexts out there which I would love to share, which is why I decided to hold the Songwriter Special. This feature is about songtexts which are absolutely brilliant, be they comical, honest or poetic.


And poetic is what describes the next song the best. What it means to me is the following. We all have our weaknesses, it's something you can't deny. Sometimes they show their ugly heads and influence the way in which we behave, mostly for the worse. It's at times like this that we, and our friends, need to realise who we really are. They need to 'dig us up from what's covering the better part of us' and never forget that this better part is still present. The song I'm talking about is:

Incubus  -  Dig

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c2gUL8vQj68

We all have a weakness
But some of ours are easy to identify.
Look me in the eye
and ask for forgiveness;
We'll make a pact to never speak that word again.
Yes, you are my friend.

We all have something that digs at us.
At least we dig each other.
So when weakness turns my ego up
I know you'll count on the me from yesterday.

If I turn into another,
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me.
Sing this song!
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone.

We all have a sickness
That cleverly attaches and multiplies
No matter how we try.

We all have someone that digs at us.
At least we dig each other.
So when sickness turns my ego up
I know you'll act as a clever medicine.

If I turn into another,
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me.
Sing this song!
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone.

Oh, each other
When everything else is gone.

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, ohh
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh

If I turn into another,
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me.
Sing this song!
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone.

Oh, each other
When everything else is gone.

Oh, each other
When everything else is gone.

zondag 27 februari 2011

This is Me

Well here it is. The blogpost that should shed some light on who I am and why I started this blog. The ‘What’s This’ 2.0 post if you will. Like in that post let's start with me again.

I’m an extraverted person who cares a great deal about the people around him. According to the Jungian personality test I’m what’s known as the ‘Giver’. I quote from the personality page: “They live in the world of people possibilities. More so than any other type, they have excellent people skills. They understand and care about people, and have a special talent for bringing out the best in others. ENFJ's main interest in life is giving love, support, and a good time to other people. They are focused on understanding, supporting, and encouraging others. They make things happen for people, and get their best personal satisfaction from this.” The full article can be found here: http://www.personalitypage.com/ENFJ.html

This may sound extremely praising but that’s because it describes the Giver at its best. Of course I’m nowhere near this level yet but the article does show what kind of a person I am and what I value. I won’t go further into that though. I’ll be talking a bit about my interests now. To put it plainly I have an interest in 4 things mainly: Personal growth for myself and others,  Playing Music,  Writing  and  Gaming. There’ll be an article each about all four of these in the near future.

The second part of this post is about why I started this blog to begin with. What was my goal? Simply put, when I started this blog I didn’t really know. I was going through some major changes, especially concerning personal growth and where I would go with my future. A blog is a way for one to put his thoughts on paper. Go over your thoughts again in your head and write them down. You’ll be surprised by the effect this has. It provides a great deal of structure for yourself and helps you clear your head a bit. I think I needed confirmation of the person who I am and this blog helps me discover that. It may seem clear to those who read it but when I’m writing a post I have to think about everything I say, which gives me the opportunity to look at things from a different angle. So in the end this blog is, to me, a way to categorize my thoughts and discover the person I am. It also helps me to show my true self to everyone who reads it, a skill I haven’t mastered really but I’ll get into that at a later point as well.

In short, I’m extremely grateful if you read this blog and I hope you find it interesting. It should provide some insight in the person I am on a deeper level. Also I hope that you can use topics I write about as a reflection point for yourself. How do you view these topics and what is your stance in life? As for that photo, well I still owe you that I’m afraid.

zaterdag 12 februari 2011

The Game


Ok as I didn't really have a gameplan whilst creating this blog things might have gotten a bit messy. Those reading the blog who don't know me personally may find it hard to follow some parts I'm writing. I keep rambling on about myself and my views in life without ever explaining who I am. Therefore, the next post will be all about that. Who am I, hopefully with a picture this time.

This post however, will be all about one of my oldest hobbies. See while I've only started working on most of my hobbies in recent years, gaming has always been and will always be a great hobby of mine. I love spending time doing things that would never be possible in real life. I'm not the kind of person who would go on a rampage through the streets, running over innocent people and shooting all around as I go. Yet it's great fun to do in GTA. Though thinking about it, that's probably not the best example.

See I like to immerse myself in the world of a game. It's similar as to watching a film, it only truly comes to life when you are immersed in it and you believe in the world and characters. This is why I love fantasy games so much. Games that put me in a world that could not normally exist. Whether it's an epic struggle for survival against an alien race in Resistance or wandering around the beautifully creative landscapes of LittleBigPlanet. Games give a sense of satisfaction and wonder.

The plus side is that games, like films, can be enjoyed by just yourself or a group of friends. I've spent many a day gaming with friends trying to either work together or against each other to complete objectives. It's great fun. While writing this though, I realise that gaming has actually gotten so big that it's impossible for me to sum it up in this article. There are so many reasons for me to pick up a game and play, so many games for all my different needs that it would take me ages to describe them all. It would be enough to mention that whether I'm coming home from a hard day at work and looking for some relaxation or spending a day with friends trying to best each other, gaming is able to satisfy my needs. It has been since I was twelve and will most likely be when I'm 70. Like film, games can be whatever you want them to be. Even art. If you want proof of that just look for a video on YouTube with a gameplay clip from Flower. You may not get it right away but, having played it, I find it mesmerising.

maandag 7 februari 2011

Keep Me Here

Just a quick post here, nothing too fancy. Though it's actually about the most important things in my life: my life's goal. See as I have so much time on my hands now, after quitting my course, I have decided to spend this time wisely, by searching for my life's goal. I mean: what is it? What would make me the happiest person on Earth? I dunno.

I think it's something everyone would like answered about their life, their ultimate goal. Well in about half an hour I'll be focussing myself on this very thing completely. How am I going to do that? Well I have no idea whatsoever. Really I don't. I think I'll just try some things. Write down things I love, things that'll make me happy. Ask myself questions. Anything to get that brain of mine working. Though I don't think I'll get extremely meaningful results today it'll still be very interesting.

As a popular t-shirt says: "I have gone to find myself. If I get back before I return, keep me here".

donderdag 3 februari 2011

Songwriter Special pt. 1

Sometimes when you listen to music you can't help but listen to the text and think to yourself "this is awesome". There are some brilliant songtexts out there which I would love to share, which is why I decided to start the Songwriter Special. This feature is about songtexts which are absolutely brilliant, be they comical, honest or poetic.

The first is a song which is a stab to all the critics who criticized the band for being fake and playing music to make money and be aired on the radio. As is stated "I'm only playing music 'cause you know i fucking love it". Here's the songtext to a song which is, in my opinion, a brilliant opening to an album which may not be praised by critics but which consists of the music the band wants to make.

Cage the Elephant  -  In One Ear
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Si8qP_isBb4

They say that we ain't got the style, we ain't got the class
We ain't got the tunes that's goin' to put us on the map
And I'm a phony in disguise, tryin' to make the radio
I'm an anti-social anarchist who sounds like so and so

They say I'm just a stupid kid, just a crazy radical
Rock and roll is dead, I probably should've stayed in school
Another generation X who somehow slipped up through the crack
Oh, they'd love to see me fall but I'm already on my back

So it goes in one ear and right out the other
People talkin' shit but you know I never bother
It goes to one ear and right out the other
People talkin' shit, they can kiss the back of my hand

Now I know I'm not a saint, I been a sinner all my life
I ain't tryin' to hide my flaws, I'd rather keep them in the light
They wanna criticize, scrutinize, cast another stone
Burn me at the stake and sit and watch it from the throne

They say the devil is my pal, I do a lotta drugs
The crowd will only like me if they're really fuckin' drunk
They think they know my thoughts, but they don't know the least
If they listened to the words they'd find the message that's beneath

But it goes in one ear and right out the other
People talkin' shit even though they never bother
It goes in one ear and right out the other
People talkin' shit, they can kiss the back of my hand

You hear that? You hear what's comin'?
Oh, you better run for the hills 'cause we're comin' to your town
And we're gonna burn that motherfucker down

Here's the moral to the story, we don't do it for the glory
We don't do it for the money, we don't do it for the things
So all the critics who despise us go ahead and criticize us
It's your charity that drives us, adds the fire to our flames

And it goes in one ear and right out the other
People talkin' shit but you know I never bother
It goes in one ear, and right out the other
I'm only playin' music 'cause you know I fuckin' love it

It goes in one ear and right out the other
People talkin' shit but you know I never bother
It goes in one ear, and right out the other
People talkin' shit, they can kiss the back of my hand